I have officially left the 170s behind, and now weigh 168.2 lbs as of this morning's weigh-in. I am so excited! I seem to have found a balance with my diet, and even exercise, and I'm seeing results!!!
Since January, I'm down 18lbs. That's after 8 months of stalled weight loss, so I'm very pleased to see weight coming off regularly now.
In other news, I may have a second job, I'll find out on the 15th for sure. It will be a huge help to my family, so I'm really hoping I get it!
Things are going quite well at the moment, yay for happy times!
-N.
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Sunday, October 7, 2012
Thursday, September 27, 2012
Brief Update
I got a job!
Apparently my daughter made such a good impression on the daycare staff at the gym where I work out, that they asked if I wanted a job. I said yes, and now I'm three weeks in already! I love it, especially because I get paid to do what I was doing at home.
I've literally been forcing myself to choke down a salad almost daily. I fucking hate salad. It doesn't matter how I make it, I still end up feeling nauseous while eating it. Lettuce is just so gross. Seriously, I would rather eat worms than salad. But stupid salad is actually working. I've lost 5 lbs since my last doctor's appointment, and by next week I should be into the 160s.
That's pretty exciting. I still would rather eat worms though.
Apparently my daughter made such a good impression on the daycare staff at the gym where I work out, that they asked if I wanted a job. I said yes, and now I'm three weeks in already! I love it, especially because I get paid to do what I was doing at home.
I've literally been forcing myself to choke down a salad almost daily. I fucking hate salad. It doesn't matter how I make it, I still end up feeling nauseous while eating it. Lettuce is just so gross. Seriously, I would rather eat worms than salad. But stupid salad is actually working. I've lost 5 lbs since my last doctor's appointment, and by next week I should be into the 160s.
That's pretty exciting. I still would rather eat worms though.
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Nothing New
It's been two weeks since my doctor's appointment. I've been careful to eat at least two cups of vegetables and fruit daily, and I've been working out more on top of doing more activities on my off days. I've started forcing myself to eat salad again, since my doctor recommended I eat at least one daily.
I got a job at the gym's day care, which is awesome since it will give me my membership and childcare for free.
Despite exercising more, and eating even healthier, and having a decent deficit for calories at the end of the day (Most of the time), I've managed to gain weight again. It's only a pound, but I'm still very agitated by the fact. I spent Friday and Saturday in NY with Beth, and we walked pretty much everywhere (We went to the Met and I finally got to see exhibits I wanted to see), despite the extremely oppressive heat. I made decent food choices, and I still gained.
I also quit the facebook group I had joined for moms trying to lose weight. I found some of the women to be preachy, judgmental, insufferable cunts about EVERYTHING, including what heart rate monitor to buy. Apparently if you don't buy a Polar brand monitor with a chest strap, it's a waste of money *eye roll*. I don't need constant monitoring, I just want to confirm that the machines I'm using are accurate. It was demotivating to read posts there day in and day out. The way I see it, I can find, and have found better women, and men to help support me (Thank you MFP!).
Anyway, I'm tired of thinking about this shit, and I have to get dressed for the gym.
If I don't see any progress in the next couple of weeks I'm going to look elsewhere for help with weight loss.
I'd rather be napping,
-N.
I got a job at the gym's day care, which is awesome since it will give me my membership and childcare for free.
Despite exercising more, and eating even healthier, and having a decent deficit for calories at the end of the day (Most of the time), I've managed to gain weight again. It's only a pound, but I'm still very agitated by the fact. I spent Friday and Saturday in NY with Beth, and we walked pretty much everywhere (We went to the Met and I finally got to see exhibits I wanted to see), despite the extremely oppressive heat. I made decent food choices, and I still gained.
I also quit the facebook group I had joined for moms trying to lose weight. I found some of the women to be preachy, judgmental, insufferable cunts about EVERYTHING, including what heart rate monitor to buy. Apparently if you don't buy a Polar brand monitor with a chest strap, it's a waste of money *eye roll*. I don't need constant monitoring, I just want to confirm that the machines I'm using are accurate. It was demotivating to read posts there day in and day out. The way I see it, I can find, and have found better women, and men to help support me (Thank you MFP!).
Anyway, I'm tired of thinking about this shit, and I have to get dressed for the gym.
If I don't see any progress in the next couple of weeks I'm going to look elsewhere for help with weight loss.
I'd rather be napping,
-N.
Monday, August 27, 2012
Doctor Follow-Up
So I had my follow-up with my doctor today. She had me keep a food journal, and sent me for blood work.
She tested my cholesterol, my thyroid, my fasting glucose, and a couple of other things.
They all came back pretty much perfect, except my cholesterol, which is slightly elevated for bad, and slightly low for the good.
In the three weeks between visits, I didn't gain or lose any weight. I went back to the gym even harder than before, did as she asked and upped my calories, and tried to eat as healthy as possible.
She says I'm not eating enough fruits and veggies, which I sort of knew. Some days, I just don't get to it.
I also need to cut honey out of my morning tea and replace it with stevia.
But other than that, I'm just...obese.
I also lost my gym partner to grad school, and haven't found a new one, which leaves me less motivated. I hate the judgmental stares (real and imagined) I get from people, and they're certainly easier to ignore when I have someone with me. I'm more self-conscious than I was before.
Most of my workout clothes had to be thrown out because the seams in the thighs burst open from wear. That's definitely an enormous blow to my ego, it's like "Hey fatty fatty, just give up, we can't contain your disgusting cottage cheese thighs with mere cotton thread."
I'm sad, and I want to cry. I still feel like garbage most days, but I push through it and go to the gym even if it's only for half an hour. I ate a klondike bar tonight to make myself feel better.
I am not on the right path.
She tested my cholesterol, my thyroid, my fasting glucose, and a couple of other things.
They all came back pretty much perfect, except my cholesterol, which is slightly elevated for bad, and slightly low for the good.
In the three weeks between visits, I didn't gain or lose any weight. I went back to the gym even harder than before, did as she asked and upped my calories, and tried to eat as healthy as possible.
She says I'm not eating enough fruits and veggies, which I sort of knew. Some days, I just don't get to it.
I also need to cut honey out of my morning tea and replace it with stevia.
But other than that, I'm just...obese.
I also lost my gym partner to grad school, and haven't found a new one, which leaves me less motivated. I hate the judgmental stares (real and imagined) I get from people, and they're certainly easier to ignore when I have someone with me. I'm more self-conscious than I was before.
Most of my workout clothes had to be thrown out because the seams in the thighs burst open from wear. That's definitely an enormous blow to my ego, it's like "Hey fatty fatty, just give up, we can't contain your disgusting cottage cheese thighs with mere cotton thread."
I'm sad, and I want to cry. I still feel like garbage most days, but I push through it and go to the gym even if it's only for half an hour. I ate a klondike bar tonight to make myself feel better.
I am not on the right path.
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Again, far too long between posts.
Boy has my summer been busy! I've gotten back to the gym, and have been working out harder than before.
I finally had my appointment with the doctor yesterday. It went very well, and she spent about an hour with me. We discussed the usual things one would expect from an appointment about weight loss issues.
She's sending me for blood tests to check my thyroid, my fasting glucose levels, and several other things to see if she can determine the problem. She also suggested that because of my level of activity, that I'm not taking in enough calories. She suggested I increase my intake to 1500 calories to see if there's any improvement. She is also having me keep a food diary for two weeks, and I have a follow-up with her in three.
I hope I can get to the bottom of the issue, because I'm still sitting at 176lbs. It's frustrating!
I will post my results from the follow-up when I get them!
-Nicole.
I finally had my appointment with the doctor yesterday. It went very well, and she spent about an hour with me. We discussed the usual things one would expect from an appointment about weight loss issues.
She's sending me for blood tests to check my thyroid, my fasting glucose levels, and several other things to see if she can determine the problem. She also suggested that because of my level of activity, that I'm not taking in enough calories. She suggested I increase my intake to 1500 calories to see if there's any improvement. She is also having me keep a food diary for two weeks, and I have a follow-up with her in three.
I hope I can get to the bottom of the issue, because I'm still sitting at 176lbs. It's frustrating!
I will post my results from the follow-up when I get them!
-Nicole.
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Memorial Day Weekend
So all of my excitement from my last update was for naught. I was down to 176, and holding when Friday rolled around. I knew that we had several barbeques to attend, so I made sure to mind how much food, and what I took in.
Friday and Saturday we didn't do much. I was ill with stomach issues, so I wound up laying in bed a lot both days. I finally gained my appetite back, and ate a bagel and a plain hamburger on Friday night.
Saturday we ran errands, and while Mike ate at the mall, I ate small meals before and after and sipped iced tea while he had hot dogs.
Sunday was BBQ numero uno, I had a hot dog and hamburger along with some baked beans for lunch. I snacked on Carrots, celery, and cucumber from the crudites plate, but avoided the ranch dressing. I had a couple of peanut butter cookies and an Italian knot over the course of the day as well. That is significantly less than my standard fare at a cookout. I was feeling proud of myself.
Monday was Memorial Day, and I always go to the parade in Trumbull and watch from a family friend's yard. They have a big cookout each year. I had a hamburger, a couple of carrot sticks, and some of the kielbasa I made. I drank water and iced tea. I wasn't hungry, and I felt good about my choices.
Yesterday I took Eisley to the zoo with my mom, we did two laps around the place because Eisley managed to sleep through the first, haha. My mom had a cheeseburger and fries. I shared a popsicle with E, and stole a couple of leftover fries from my mom. I had steak and corn for dinner.
I felt very proud of my choices over the weekend, as they are much improved from how I would normally eat on a holiday weekend.
I stepped on the scale this morning for my weekly weigh-in, and I managed to gain back all 5 pounds I had lost, as well as an additional pound, bringing me back up to 181.
I haven't worked out at all lately, unless you count running around after a toddler for hours on a daily basis, so I know that I haven't been doing myself any favor, but I'm still disappointed.
The only good news is, is that today, for the first time in weeks, I feel normal. I'm not exhausted to the point of being barely able to function. I feel like I could go to the gym, which I may actually do tonight if I still feel up to it.
I really need to call that doctor's office and see if there are any cancellations that have opened spots up so I can get my thyroid checked out sooner.
Well, that's all for the moment.
-Nicole
Friday and Saturday we didn't do much. I was ill with stomach issues, so I wound up laying in bed a lot both days. I finally gained my appetite back, and ate a bagel and a plain hamburger on Friday night.
Saturday we ran errands, and while Mike ate at the mall, I ate small meals before and after and sipped iced tea while he had hot dogs.
Sunday was BBQ numero uno, I had a hot dog and hamburger along with some baked beans for lunch. I snacked on Carrots, celery, and cucumber from the crudites plate, but avoided the ranch dressing. I had a couple of peanut butter cookies and an Italian knot over the course of the day as well. That is significantly less than my standard fare at a cookout. I was feeling proud of myself.
Monday was Memorial Day, and I always go to the parade in Trumbull and watch from a family friend's yard. They have a big cookout each year. I had a hamburger, a couple of carrot sticks, and some of the kielbasa I made. I drank water and iced tea. I wasn't hungry, and I felt good about my choices.
Yesterday I took Eisley to the zoo with my mom, we did two laps around the place because Eisley managed to sleep through the first, haha. My mom had a cheeseburger and fries. I shared a popsicle with E, and stole a couple of leftover fries from my mom. I had steak and corn for dinner.
I felt very proud of my choices over the weekend, as they are much improved from how I would normally eat on a holiday weekend.
I stepped on the scale this morning for my weekly weigh-in, and I managed to gain back all 5 pounds I had lost, as well as an additional pound, bringing me back up to 181.
I haven't worked out at all lately, unless you count running around after a toddler for hours on a daily basis, so I know that I haven't been doing myself any favor, but I'm still disappointed.
The only good news is, is that today, for the first time in weeks, I feel normal. I'm not exhausted to the point of being barely able to function. I feel like I could go to the gym, which I may actually do tonight if I still feel up to it.
I really need to call that doctor's office and see if there are any cancellations that have opened spots up so I can get my thyroid checked out sooner.
Well, that's all for the moment.
-Nicole
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Jeans pt III!
Yes, another update about jeans.
It's a good one!
The size 18 jeans Mike bought for me several weeks ago no longer fit. Eisley pretty much pantsed me in front of a couple of clients today while I was doing a cut. They were already baggy everywhere except the waist when I bought them, but now even the waist is extremely loose. I also saw 180 lbs for the first time in months on the scale. Hopefully it sticks!!!
Last weekend was great, Mike and I did a walk on the Rail Trail (aka Freedom Trail) in Trumbull with Eisley in the stroller. We went from the center of town to Whitney ave, and back. Round-trip it's about 6 miles if you go according to the trail marking benches every half-mile. It felt awesome!
This week I have felt so incredibly unmotivated and exhausted. I'm blaming this crappy crappy weather, and my new Kindle Fire that Mike gave me. I hope the weather goes back to the warm sunny stuff we have been having, because I hate feeling like such a sloth.
Anyway, just a short update, hopefully more posts of this nature in the coming weeks!
I'm hoping to be back into a size 10 by my birthday in December.
-Nicole
It's a good one!
The size 18 jeans Mike bought for me several weeks ago no longer fit. Eisley pretty much pantsed me in front of a couple of clients today while I was doing a cut. They were already baggy everywhere except the waist when I bought them, but now even the waist is extremely loose. I also saw 180 lbs for the first time in months on the scale. Hopefully it sticks!!!
Last weekend was great, Mike and I did a walk on the Rail Trail (aka Freedom Trail) in Trumbull with Eisley in the stroller. We went from the center of town to Whitney ave, and back. Round-trip it's about 6 miles if you go according to the trail marking benches every half-mile. It felt awesome!
This week I have felt so incredibly unmotivated and exhausted. I'm blaming this crappy crappy weather, and my new Kindle Fire that Mike gave me. I hope the weather goes back to the warm sunny stuff we have been having, because I hate feeling like such a sloth.
Anyway, just a short update, hopefully more posts of this nature in the coming weeks!
I'm hoping to be back into a size 10 by my birthday in December.
-Nicole
Monday, April 9, 2012
Easter Sunday
This weekend was Easter. I made a vow to try and keep away from all of the typical sweet temptations that come along with any holiday. I had to cook for my mom (I make perogies every year), but I managed to resist eating spoonfuls of potato filling like I normally do. I made four dozen perogies, and didn't make any for myself!
Anyway, I digress. I kept myself insanely busy this week. Eisley and I went for walks Monday and Tuesday evening with one of my nearest and dearest friends and her daughter. Wednesday we went to Mommy and Me and the gym. Thursday we went to the gym, the mall to pick up a few things, and to the park for a walk. Friday I took off because I was very tired. Saturday we were back at the gym, and for the first time in months, Eisley didn't shed a tear! We also went shopping and to the park for a while.
SO, back to Sunday. We went to my mom's house for brunch around 10:30. I ate a bit of kielbasa, and a couple of perogies (I had to make sure they were acceptable ;-) ), and then left to go to dinner with Mike's family. We walked to the restaurant because it was so gorgeous outside and it's like half a mile down the road. I thought I could at LEAST find one food to eat at the restaurant, but I was mistaken. I couldn't stomach any of the stuff in the buffet, so I sat and watched everyone else eat. I did eat a couple of cream puffs for dessert, but that was about it. I was STARVING last night, so I ate a banana.
Tomorrow I'll be back at the gym, and weather permitting, taking a walk in the evening. I'm still floating between 180-185 lbs, which is still discouraging. I'm trying to cut down on my milk intake, since I have a serious addiction to it and can never seem to drink enough. I'm hoping maybe since it's my last thing I have yet to remove from my diet that maybe it will help. Also, I am happy to report that Eisley is fully weaned, which is a huge relief and also hopefully helpful in my quest. I really need to call the doctor's office and ask if they have a cancellation list I can get on in hopes of getting a closer appointment.
I think that's it for now!
-Nicole
Anyway, I digress. I kept myself insanely busy this week. Eisley and I went for walks Monday and Tuesday evening with one of my nearest and dearest friends and her daughter. Wednesday we went to Mommy and Me and the gym. Thursday we went to the gym, the mall to pick up a few things, and to the park for a walk. Friday I took off because I was very tired. Saturday we were back at the gym, and for the first time in months, Eisley didn't shed a tear! We also went shopping and to the park for a while.
SO, back to Sunday. We went to my mom's house for brunch around 10:30. I ate a bit of kielbasa, and a couple of perogies (I had to make sure they were acceptable ;-) ), and then left to go to dinner with Mike's family. We walked to the restaurant because it was so gorgeous outside and it's like half a mile down the road. I thought I could at LEAST find one food to eat at the restaurant, but I was mistaken. I couldn't stomach any of the stuff in the buffet, so I sat and watched everyone else eat. I did eat a couple of cream puffs for dessert, but that was about it. I was STARVING last night, so I ate a banana.
Tomorrow I'll be back at the gym, and weather permitting, taking a walk in the evening. I'm still floating between 180-185 lbs, which is still discouraging. I'm trying to cut down on my milk intake, since I have a serious addiction to it and can never seem to drink enough. I'm hoping maybe since it's my last thing I have yet to remove from my diet that maybe it will help. Also, I am happy to report that Eisley is fully weaned, which is a huge relief and also hopefully helpful in my quest. I really need to call the doctor's office and ask if they have a cancellation list I can get on in hopes of getting a closer appointment.
I think that's it for now!
-Nicole
Monday, April 2, 2012
I have the worst luck
I really do. I broke my toe last weekend while cleaning the house and it put my out of commission for a few days. My toe was so swollen, I couldn't get my shoe on. I have those Nike running shoes that don't have a tongue, but instead are a solid piece and I couldn't squeeze my foot into it without causing major amounts of pain to myself. My toe was finally small enough that Wednesday I was able to get my sneaker back on, but after Mommy and Me Eisley had a major meltdown so I took her home to nap. My toe is still grossly swollen, and I think that its new bulbous shape might be a permanent change.
I also saw a chiropractor on Wednesday afternoon and got an adjustment, which was desperately needed because I have been having serious problems with my back and shoulders to the point of barely being able to tolerate it. I have a follow-up today and I'm definitely looking forward to it, even though I felt better after the appointment I'm still having a lot of problems with my shoulders and neck, so I am hoping this appointment will give me more relief.
I am looking forward to going back to the gym tomorrow morning again, I've missed it.
I also saw a chiropractor on Wednesday afternoon and got an adjustment, which was desperately needed because I have been having serious problems with my back and shoulders to the point of barely being able to tolerate it. I have a follow-up today and I'm definitely looking forward to it, even though I felt better after the appointment I'm still having a lot of problems with my shoulders and neck, so I am hoping this appointment will give me more relief.
I am looking forward to going back to the gym tomorrow morning again, I've missed it.
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Down Day
I'm having a down kind of day. I didn't sleep well last night due to being ill, and I didn't feel much better this morning so I skipped the gym. I'm just so terribly frustrated with the effort I'm putting into trying to lose weight only to have the opposite results. It's disheartening to say the least.
At this rate, I know I won't be in a better bathing suit this summer, which really sucks. I wanted to look nice for the first time in two years.
Tonight I'm going for a walk with the family, and then maybe the gym after dinner.
Boo.
-Nicole
At this rate, I know I won't be in a better bathing suit this summer, which really sucks. I wanted to look nice for the first time in two years.
Tonight I'm going for a walk with the family, and then maybe the gym after dinner.
Boo.
-Nicole
Monday, March 19, 2012
Finally
So after two weeks of being sick, I am finally 98% better. I still have some stuff in my sinuses, but it's more than manageable, and definitely tolerable. Now that I'm better I'm looking forward to the gym tonight. I had planned to go this morning, but I wound up taking much longer to make breakfast and find a doctor I could get an appointment with. Which brings me to my next bit, I have finally scheduled an appointment with a doctor to get my thyroid checked, the only downside is it isn't until August. My insurance has pretty much next to zero doctors that are accepting new patients that aren't gynecologists or pediatricians, so it took me a little while to pick through the lists and find one. I'm a bit bummed out that I have to wait until August, but it does give me a bit of time to really try even harder to lose weight and keep it off. If I do have a thyroid issue, I'm not looking forward to potentially taking a medication to regulate it.
Since being sick, I gained back the weight I had lost and kept off for several weeks. People keep telling me I look like I am losing weight, but since my last weigh-in a week ago I went back up to 185. It's very frustrating, although I will admit that while sick I did eat out several times. I did choose healthy options of grilled fish, and steak with steamed vegetables instead of fries. I drank water instead of soda or tea. But on Friday it was Mike's birthday and I ate hamburgers and french fries from Danny's. And then I ate the chocolate peanut butter oreo ice cream cake I made. THAT was a huge mistake, I felt super ill. I also didn't eat lunch on Saturday and made up for it by eating an entire small pizza for dinner. Also a big mistake. I didn't feel good after those choices, which is a good sign, but I know to continue to avoid those foods.
I also started taking a B vitamin this weekend, so here's hoping for more energy. Since the weather is FINALLY starting to get nice again, we've been outside a lot more too! Tuesday we took a walk for an hour around the neighborhood, and Saturday and Sunday we went to the park. Yesterday before hitting the playground, we went for a walk around the pond at Beaver Brook, and I wore Eisley in my Wrapsody. It was definitely enjoyable, and I look forward to walking and wearing Eisley more and more this year.
I also went a bought a ton of fresh fruits and veggies, so I've been eating quite a few of those each day, which is wonderful! I'm so glad berries and pears and peaches are coming back in season!
Anyway, I'm pretty sure that is all for now!
-Nicole
Since being sick, I gained back the weight I had lost and kept off for several weeks. People keep telling me I look like I am losing weight, but since my last weigh-in a week ago I went back up to 185. It's very frustrating, although I will admit that while sick I did eat out several times. I did choose healthy options of grilled fish, and steak with steamed vegetables instead of fries. I drank water instead of soda or tea. But on Friday it was Mike's birthday and I ate hamburgers and french fries from Danny's. And then I ate the chocolate peanut butter oreo ice cream cake I made. THAT was a huge mistake, I felt super ill. I also didn't eat lunch on Saturday and made up for it by eating an entire small pizza for dinner. Also a big mistake. I didn't feel good after those choices, which is a good sign, but I know to continue to avoid those foods.
I also started taking a B vitamin this weekend, so here's hoping for more energy. Since the weather is FINALLY starting to get nice again, we've been outside a lot more too! Tuesday we took a walk for an hour around the neighborhood, and Saturday and Sunday we went to the park. Yesterday before hitting the playground, we went for a walk around the pond at Beaver Brook, and I wore Eisley in my Wrapsody. It was definitely enjoyable, and I look forward to walking and wearing Eisley more and more this year.
I also went a bought a ton of fresh fruits and veggies, so I've been eating quite a few of those each day, which is wonderful! I'm so glad berries and pears and peaches are coming back in season!
Anyway, I'm pretty sure that is all for now!
-Nicole
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